My cat died tonight

One of my cats died tonight. Jewel. Technically, he was my wife's cat. But when she left me, she left Jewel with me. I was all for it .... because I adored the guy. Jewel was a beautiful white male with gorgeous blue eyes. He was a lovable lap cat. My neighbor called me up at my mom and dad's tonight to tell me Jewel was laying in the backyard dead. When I got home it was too late to investigate too much. It was after dark.
He has marks and blood on him like he's been attacked by a dog ..... or maybe shot ..... I can't tell. Maybe the vet can tell tomorrow.
Either way, I'm freakin' so sad.
I loved the little furry lug.
He was my buddy.
Something living and tangible that reminded me of Tori when life was good.
And now he's gone too.
What else can happen in '04?
I'm sitting here just feeling miserable. I've drank most of a bottle of wine because I feel bad. Of course, that will make me feel worse in the morning! And I have to work!
Geez
Sigh .....
What else?
The wife leaves me ..... my neighbor's wife dies .... and my cat dies ..... all in the same year .....
What a year so far.
What a way to turn 40 .......